I LOVE Presents!!

Yesterday I was trying to keep busy, I feel like I must have walked about 3 miles! Just trying to get errands done and keep myself preoccupied. After getting home and freshening up before dinner I noticed a package outside my door!! It was from my old doctor and the Mid Wife. I opened it up and there was a "Wishing You The Best!" card and a nice note, along with two presents for our unborn baby!

A Giraffe Coat and matching little furry booties

A Bear Coat!

They are soo cute!! I love presents :D

Newport News, VA

Matt left for school, he will be in Newport News, VA for the next 14-15 weeks! Luckily they shortened the time he will be away :D

His family has been an enormous help since he left! They have been over a lot and just have been great about everything, I honestly don't know what I would do without them right now! His dad even took me to the airport to see him off before he left, which was awesome :)

Hurry Up and Wait

For the longest time I never knew what that meant. Everyone always said that "hurry up and wait" was like the military's motto. Well right now I get it 100%!!

Matt left at 5 am this morning to go swear in. Of course I couldn't go because I can't drive long distances due to my blood pressure being too low and not being able to find a ride. I dropped him off at the recruiters and I eventually fell back asleep. I woke up at about 10 am and was thinking about everything. Just wondering if he was on his way to the airport or something. Then I got a phone call, sure enough there was a "problem" with his contract and by "problem" they mean someone that was doing his paper work made a mistake. He hasn't been sworn in yet and they don't know if he can even join!!!

As much as I am going to miss him this news really did make my heart sink. We only have our apt for about another 15 days, where would we live? How would we pay for our storage unit? I canceled my medical insurance!!!

After about three hours I finally get another update. They are making an "exception" and letting him go in as specified before at the rank they had already said. GREAT...but really it was their mistake that is what they should do but now it's called them making an "exception" funny how that works. Don't get me wrong I am appreciative but really?! I mean it was their mistake.

Now it's too late for them to get him on a flight so he won't leave until tomorrow morning. This is also good news because it means one more day together. It also means that I have to find a way across town to go stay in the hotel with him because they won't just let him come home (I don't ? them so I don't know why). The hotel is over an hour away and then in the morning I will have to find a way back home or to the swear in at 9:30 am, he has to be down there at 5 am again and I can't go with him.

I guess this wouldn't be so hard if I could just drive...If I wasn't pregnant...If it wasn't an emotional roller coaster of life altering decisions!

So now I am waiting again. After weeks of hurrying through so much that I still have a lot to do after he leaves and am physically unable to do it myself (I just figure I'll find help, that's all I really can do).

I wonder how long I have to wait...to find out anything else...to meet up with my husband...to know that everything is set in stone, he is sworn in and on his way...geez, I think it's going to be a long 24 hours!

Cantaloupe

We still haven't made it to the DMV to finish the name change...I'm not really in a rush lol. We've just trying to finish up some last minute errands before Matt leaves on Wednesday.

We are finally all packed up! Matt has to run a PT in the morning, that means I'll be doing a lot of foot rubbing tomorrow :)

It's Official

Today me and Matt went to Jason's Deli for lunch it's a little sandwich shop in Mesa AZ. It is so underrated! It is seriously such good food and large portioned, for a decent price. The atmosphere is nice too it's always kinda busy but it's never too loud and we sat outside under the sun umbrella and enjoyed our sandwiches and talked about what needed to be finished before he leaves next week.

We decided that it was time to change my name...officially (I kinda put it off for a while but need it in order to get my military ID). We picked up the directions from the apt and we were on our way! I was reading Matt the directions and somehow managed to mess them up even though they were written step by step and I even had a map printed out! So we made a wrong turn and ventured a good 10 miles out of the way in downtown Phoenix (not the best part of town)!! Finally Matt asked to see the directions and turned us back the right way, giving me a hard time of course, I still don't see how I messed that up lol!

After finally making it to the Social Security Office I couldn't help but think that it should be entertaining. Usually places like that are an interesting place to people watch, little did I know I would be on the other side of that shortly. As soon as we walk into the building I realize that there is an elevator and I hate elevators...Don't know what it is about them they just scare me. Luckily we only had to go up one floor so I figured I'd just try to pretend it didn't bother me. That plan was out the window as soon as the doors closed and we started moving I'm sure I grabbed Matt's arm pretty hard cuz he just looked at me like "really??". After getting to our floor I apologized and tried to regain my "cool". Still feeling a little scattered by the elevator though I was trying to follow the simple check-in directions the security guard was giving me...it just wasn't really working out for some reason; turned off my cell phone...Check...Push the #1 button on the machine...Check...Take a seat?? ummm...I couldn't remember what came before sit down. I started looking for a receipt or something to come out of the machine. Before I knew it the security guard and Matt were laughing at me and the first two rows of people were just staring. Matt handed me a piece of paper that printed out three feet down and from a separate machine that was to my right (somehow this was common sense?!). I took my seat and waited to be called. It didn't take long to my relief and the associate was very nice. After it was all finished we had to go back into the dreaded elevator!! There was a guy standing in front of the elevators but didn't get in when the doors opened so we just went down to the first floor. Once we arrived I managed to pry my hands free of Matt's arm and then I noticed...This hallway looks the same and there was that same guy standing there. I must have turned around in a complete circle just utterly confused when Matt and the other guy just started cracking up! Matt said he's really fast and must have ran down the stairs and beat us! Funny...really he took a different elevator and why he was standing in the 1st floor lobby or why he didn't get in the same elevator as us still alludes me! I'm kinda glad it's over I really wasn't prepared for that today. It's days like this that make me wonder how I will even get by for the few months Matt is going to be at tech school lol. My name is officially changed through SS now...DMV tomorrow, wonder how that will go...

Then we came home and started packing (well I did, I'm pretty sure Matt was playing a video game) thankfully Matt's sister Christy decided to come help! It was awesome we got so much done. Overall a very productive day.

Ultrasound Pictures

I know it's a little late but my laptop was not cooperating for a while so I couldn't get the pictures off of it until now! This is from week 16








The first picture shows the baby's head with its arms reaching up to it's face. The second shows the baby's fingers. At the time the baby was positioned with one leg tucked back, sitting pretty much like a cheerleader lol, so they couldn't tell the sex yet! My next ultrasound probably won't be until June. I'm so excited though because it will be in 3D and it will also give me a dvd of the baby's movement for about 15 to 20 minutes. I think it will be pretty neat to see, especially so I can send it to Matt while he is at tech school :)

...I wish I was a tree

Hope everyone had a great Easter! Ours was pretty good, despite missing church due to some pregnancy related sickness. We had a busy weekend between a BBQ for Matt (a goodbye bbq before he leaves for tech school) which was on sat and then going over to my sister in laws house for Easter on Sunday. It was all a lot of fun and very tiring.

Unfortunately I didn't take any pictures all weekend. I think it's one of the side effects of being pregnant, tired and camera shy. I normally take a bunch of pictures no matter what I'm doing but now...I'd rather not see myself (let alone remember myself this way). I've gained 10 lbs now. All in my stomach though, a "baby bump". Wish I was a little more excited about it. For now it just means I have to pack away all my good clothes. I am in the process of tying to figure out if it's even allowed to take lamaze classes alone. So far I haven't found one(yay).

Things have been pretty tense with Matt leaving soon and somehow reverting to a 12 year old state of mind and me trying to plan a move, a pregnancy and birth by myself....Trying to hang in there.

Tomorrow Couldn't Come Fast Enough!

Today WAS a relaxing day. This morning I sat out by the pool with my ipod and read a book. Then on my way back into our apt I tripped, of course, skinned my knees, dropped my cell phone and it broke into like a million pieces! I loved my phone and they don't make it anymore. Who knows maybe the new one will be better though...hopefully a lil more durable :)

Perspective

Today I am officially 17 wks!

Baby's skeleton is hardening, changing from rubbery cartilage to bone, and fat is finally accumulating around it. The umbilical cord is getting thicker and stronger, and those little fingers and toes are now topped by one-of-a-kind prints.

Today I also decided that (maybe) change isn't so bad. I am going to go stay with family while Matt is in tech school so we can buy a new car when he gets back!! I am really excited :)

In Loving Memory...

On Sunday the 14th of March, Cpl Jonathan Daniel Porto (Marine) died while on operations in Helmand Province, Afghanistan when the vehicle he was in flipped over. His wife is 23 and has a brand new baby girl Ariana. They were both expecting him home in just a few short months when on Monday the 15th of March they were notified of the news. Below is a link to the video of her husbands unit prior to deployment. Near the end of the video you can see Mr. P saying goodbye to his wife and Ariana (who is unborn) for the last time. Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers as she faces every military wife's nightmare.

Semper Fi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lw_jlDWUkro&feature=player_embedded

I Guess I Just Hate Goodbyes...

Earlier today before my last doctors appointment, while Matt was still at work, I was doing some light housework. I grabbed one of his shirts off the dresser that he had worn for a short time yesterday and threw it on so I wouldn't get my dress dirty while I was cleaning. After putting the shirt on I smelled it, mainly to make sure I didn't just put on a dirty shirt lol, it wasn't but it smelled like him. It was nice and then I got that feeling...The feeling that makes the ball in my throat rise like I am about to choke and made the baby in my stomach flop around like a fish out of water! I am going to miss him so much while he is gone at tech school!

After Matt came home from work we went to my doctors appointment. You would think that saying goodbye to doctors and nurses wouldn't be a difficult thing to do, maybe it's the pregnancy hormones kicking in! I told them that I am switching to Tricare (Military Insurance)and that this would be my last appointment. They asked to see our wedding pictures. As we showed them our wedding pictures and talked about my soon to be doctors they were very supportive but also seemingly disappointed...then I started to feel it, that awful feeling was coming back again, I was kinda disappointed too but I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because it's just another change to add to the list.

It's very difficult when your whole world changes completely in just a few months! Not that I am unhappy, I am just adjusting. Yet I feel like I have been adjusting for too long and I still have a lot more adjustments to make very soon, when does adjusting finally become a thing of the past?